Thursday, July 23, 2009

a time to heal, move on and be happy ....

................ and Im sorry for not being around, we had to make an unexpected trip to Bakewell Derbyshire


down by the river in Bakewell


in and around Bakewell



The Square










Bakewell River where we had huge fun feeding the ducks :)

Jim feeding the duck



Today this song came into my head

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven
A time to be born, a time to die

A time to plant, a time to reap
A time to kill, a time to heal..............

My paternal dad died three weeks ago and it's left me very sad and confused about the emotions I'm feeling. Sadly I have very few happy memories of him however I do remember him singing and playing his guitar, one of the folk singers he liked was Pete Seeger who wrote the music these words are often sung to, is this a coincidence or a message from the angels.
My dad's wife has so generously given me his easel, watercolours and pencils ~ Ive been using them today ~ could that be why the song came to me? I wonder if they're telling me to move on, I am trying to leave the sadness around my childhood behind, just stuff keeps happening to dig it all up again.

I returned to Derbyshire for the funeral and met with family I'd not seen for 30+ years ~ it was all very emotional. We stayed in Bakewell where I spent most of my childhood weekends and fed the ducks on the river ~ it was very soothing watching the ducks and the people walking by, the pull was very strong and it was really hard to leave and I'd only spent 5 days there!

Anyway now Im home in Scotland and I have to get on with my life here, I've had two lovely lunches this week ~ one with college friends at Dundee Rep and one with my sisters and Ed (my other dad) for Tina's birthday

Happy Birthday to Tina
and Bill



I have college again soon, screen printing at the Print Studio at DCA (my new favourite place) and last but very certainly not least my gorgeous girls are back in 63 hours, I cannot wait


here's the Judrops Angel I painted this afternoon



( : judrops angel : )

So to the future I hope you are all happy and making the most of living and life and making plenty of art ~ God bless and love to you all ~ Judy x

Had to leave you with some crazy images of this little bird who wouldnt leave us alone till he got cake!!!


and wanted more!

9 comments:

LOVE STITCHING RED said...

Hi Judy, so glad to hear your girls will soon be home! Hope the time goes quickly till they are with you

Judrops Angel is gorgeous, so very pretty

Sending lots of love, Carolyn xx

Judy Scott said...

Thankyou dear Carolyn taking tentative steps back here, love to you too and thanks for keeping in touch ~ Judy x

Gina said...

Sorry to hear of your loss Judy. Wishing you lots of lovely happy times especially with your girls. How lovely to have them back. Gina x

Linda said...

Oh Judy....you were only an hour away from me in Bakewell! Its a lovely market town - we often visit there. Sorry that you should have to visit in such sad circumstances. Hope you are feeling ok...you certainly will be when those girls get back!
Big hug
Linda
(PS Judrops angel is lovely)

Jeanette said...

I am so sorry for your loss... I have wondered how you are since I have not seen you blog much lately. I am in the middle of a nightmare with a water leak in our home and have had to move out... hence no ART studio and no desire to create. Your Judrop angel gives me hope... Take care

Judy Scott said...

thankyou for all your lovely messages ~ big hugs to you all ~ Judy xxx

Jackie said...

A very difficult time for you. Sending good wishes.
x

Jacky said...

Bakewell is such a beautiful village (thank you for sharing it with us). So sad your trip back was for your paternal dads funeral, sounds like a difficult trip to make.
It is lovely that his wife has given you your fathers easel and art bits and pieces and lovely that you have been playing with them already.
Have fun with your girls...isnt it lovely when they come home for a vist and we can be "mum" again.

Sending much love,

Jacky xox

Kelly Snelling_Soulhumming.typepad.com said...

i'm so sorry to hear of your father's passing, judy. please do be easy with yourself. i think when our past is not neat or there are hard memories, the end makes it all so much harder to work through. it is confusing. it is painful. you don't have to worry or apologize. it is natural and frightening to feel sad at such a loss. hold onto your family. work it out with your artwork. use those tools of his and keep living your beautiful life. sending you big hugs from here. xo